Betrothed to A Charlatan Preacher: There was Blood

It was on October 24th, 2017, when the Macon Telegraph reported this story. I vividly remember reading the article. The trial was over, and the guilty verdict had come in. Furthermore, a former pastor of a church had been sentenced to life in prison without the possibility of parole. He appeared to read the Bible in court. He was accused of slaying his longtime girlfriend and fiance. I was the other fiance. I had been questioned by the authorities, who gave me an account of everything that had happened. I kept playing that tape in my head. Was there any other way an innocent life could have been saved? They say that hindsight is 20/20, but mine was too foggy to piece together what remained of my life. I read articles and watched news on television. I was painted simply as the other woman from Atlanta he was also engaged to. Feelings of shame, depression, and nothingness overwhelmed me. To heal from the trauma, I have took time away from everything and introspectively look over my life all the way from childhood. I have repeatedly played the tape of my life to see the gaps and failures in judgment. I live in fear of dating and trusting again. My life is forever changed.