At 9 years old I knew I was different, sought constant attention and even in a room filled with people often felt alone. That would all change when alcohol and drugs entered my life at 15. Married and the father of a son at 18 years old I never knew what was going to happen when I took that first drink. Reality was a difficult task and I had no use for it so I constantly lived in a fantasy world blaming everything and everyone for my circumstances and shortcomings. There was no such thing as personal accountability or poor life choices, I was just a victim constantly being dealt a bad hand. Through failed friendships, relationships, marriages and even the thought of taking my own life I couldn't stop drinking. On my knees in desperation crying, "Save me or take me, I cannot bare this pain any longer and my loved ones do not deserve this, please help me God." A miracle transpired and I have been blessed with over 32 years of continuous sobriety. This live is beyond my wildest dreams and it is my responsibility to pass the good news along to others that suffer from alcoholism and/or drug addiction. There is a life without alcohol and drugs for anyone that wants it. An indescribable freedom filled with joy, love, please and happiness.