Terrifying nightmares and overwhelming shame brought Kathy to counseling, where she hoped to find the truth about the past she didn’t remember. She didn’t know she had about seventy personalities. As we pulled back the layers of her life, she remembered many times, beginning in her early childhood, when her mother took her to cult churches in the middle of the night. The leaders planted lies and dark secrets deep in her mind and used drugs and mind control to twist biblical truths and convince Kathy her sweet blood paid for their sins. During the rituals, the cult leaders called themselves God, the Father, God, the Son, and God, the Holy Ghost. This book chronicles Kathy’s twelve-year counseling journey using excerpts from her many journals. She penned her prayers to Jesus onto tear-stained pages and communicated with her child alters by writing to them in these journals. She gave the journals to me to help me write the book. She doesn’t want them in her house. The healing journey took Kathy through fierce spiritual battles, where she developed a deeper understanding of Jesus’ love for her and His power against the forces of darkness. As a young wife and mother, she had to take care of her children while she healed her fractured self. This brave woman conquered many spiritual battles lasting hours in the counseling office and then went home to her family, still half her real self and half a child alter about three years old. Often she still felt like one of the little girl alters who showed up in counseling. Her mind had been splintered by the lies and abuse of the cult. The memories of her horrible past could cause her to be sabotaged at any moment and triggered her mind to believe she was still a little girl calling for her mother, a mother who only hurt her. When her mind was clear, she could still revert to the lies of the past cult abuse. The reader will meet Kay Lynn, Faith, Amber, Baby, and many more. Kathy’s story tells of love, faith, and courage. Jesus never left her alone in the battles. When she finished a memory, He would speak truth to her mind and soul. I am reminded of the phrase, The Warrior is a Child. This book is not based on a true story. It is a true story told and written by Kathy and her alters in the wee hours of the morning. The only parts that are not either said or written by her are the ones said by the counselor. This story is intense and definitely not for anyone under 17 years old. If you are a cult survivor, please check with your therapist before reading. This is a story of intense spiritual warfare done in a counseling office and alone in a bedroom at home. It is also the story of a courageous woman a with a strong desire to heal. She knew she could only heal with the help of the True Lord Jesus and she finds her truth in Him.
