My name is Calvin Sinclair, I’m eleven years old and I have a confession… I killed my brother.

It’s the summer before grade six and Calvin Sinclair is bored to tears. He’s recently moved from a big city to a small town and there’s nothing to do. It’s hot, he has no friends and the only kid around is his six-year-old brother, Sammy, who can barely throw a basketball as high as the hoop.

Cal occupies his time by getting his brother to do almost anything: from collecting ants to doing Calvin’s chores. And Sammy is all too eager - as long as it means getting a Level and moving one step closer to his brother’s Eagle status.

When Calvin meets Aleta Alvarado, a new girl who shares his love for Goosebumps books and adventure, Sammy is pushed aside. Cal feels guilty but not enough to change. At least not until a diagnosis makes things at home start spinning out of control and he’s left wondering whether Sammy will ever complete his own journey…

Tender, direct, and honest. -Kirkus Reviews

An honest portrayal of love, loss, and friendship. -School Library Journal

A moving and ultimately hopeful book. -Booklist

This book is heart-breaking, gut-wrenching, and awe-inspiring…. highly recommend this book to fans of the book Wonder by R. J. Palacio, but i think that any reader will enjoy this excellent debut novel from Alex Lyttle. -JacobtheBookworm, Goodreads

This is touching, moving, beautiful story and I can’t recommend it enough. Even though its target audience is upper middle grade, everyone should read this. Did you watch that television show Red Band Society? My teenager daughter and I loved that show and this book had that seem feel but from the perspective of the non-ill sibling. Nicola Yoon’s Everything, Everything was released in September of 2015 and the hype that followed was out of control. The hype for this book needs to surpass that. -Candace, Goodreads

Check out Alex Lyttle’s other book: The Rise of Winter The Critics Agree: From Ant to Eagle, like The Bridge to Terabithia and Out of My Mind, shouldn’t be missed. Read this award-winning book today!

Winner, Red Cedar Award 2019 Winner, Silver Birch Fiction Award 2018 Winner, Rocky Mountain Book Award 2019 Finalist, Alberta Writers Guild 2019 Finalist, Foreword Indies Book of the Year 2017