The book is about my experiences as I grew from twenty-two to seventy-one years of age. I have one full brother and two half-brothers and a half-sister. I grew up in South California. I got saved in 1972. Even though my progress was slow, I eventually found peace but was troubled by my stress disorder. Finally got some help with stress and sleeplessness. I got counseling too and almost killed him because he was not trauma trained and he messed with my emotions. I quit counseling and started to self-medicate. I spent two weeks in the hospital, getting my meds in order. Then Pamela had her stroke at the end of July 2019. My granddaughter believes that God took her, but I know it was the devil. The cover picture is of a serene place