Autoportrait

A work of unflinching honesty, Autoportrait is a hypnotic memoir of reflection, loss, and everyday joy from one of America’s best contemporary novelists

Jesse Ball has produced fourteen acclaimed works of deeply empathetic absurdism in poetry and fiction. Now, he offers readers his first memoir, one that showcases his humane curiosity (James Wood) and invites the reader into a raw and personal account of love, grief, and memory. Inspired by the memoir Edouard Leve put to paper shortly before his death, Autoportrait is an extraordinarily frank and intimate work from one of America’s most brilliant young authors.

The subtle power of Ball’s voice conjures the richness of everyday life. On each page, half-remembered moments are woven together with the joys and triumphs-and the mistakes and humiliations, too-that somehow tell us who we are, why we are here. Held at the same height as tragic accounts of illness or death are moments of startling beauty, banality, or humor: I wake in the morning, I sit, I walk long distances. If there is somewhere to swim, I may swim. If I have a bicycle, I will ride it, especially to meet someone. There is no more preparing for me to do, other than preparing for death, and I do that by laughing. Not laughing at death, of course. Laughing at myself.

An extraordinary memoir that reminds us what is possible and builds to the kind of power one might feel reading Anne Carson’s Glass Essay, or Joe Brainard’s I Remember. Autoportrait will leave you feeling utterly invigorated, inspired, and a little afraid.