The R-word has been used against us as hate speech for decades. Neurotypicals have tried to dictate our motives, experiences, and words without stepping back to look at how taking the word away does nothing to take away their attitudes behind it. While leftist culture has abandoned the word "retarded," we are still treated with the same hatefulness and discrimination implicit in that word. In the fourth installment of this relevant zine series, contributors relate what it's like to deal with anxiety in a world where their sense of belonging is constantly being challenged.