What do you do when the god of logic fails you? You look around yourself and see a hostile, random, and meaningless world about you. Your god is dead. And your choices? To put your horror on hold and move on, to surrender to madness, or to die along with your god. This collection of poems contains the words of a man who chose denial and slipped into madness to finally confront suicide. From Vietnam to the present war in Iraq, a Vietnam-era veteran travels to a place of denial, experiences a crushing episode of delayed post traumatic stress disorder over three decades later, and finds his way back to his humanity and, for him, a new way of seeing the war in Iraq. These are the poems and thoughts of a veteran, including the inner man who had been left for dead decades ago, returning home at last.