Manifestations

Many experiences occurred in my life where I was either too immature or unknowledgeable about why and how they happened to me. I now realize that I am not to see myself as just another person having little or no significance in the larger scheme of things. The fact that I exist is huge. Many times, situations took place in my earlier life that were designed to kill me. Some of those situations were spiritual. Others were physical. Some of the major ones were not even about me. Some of the situations were about power play. And I just happened to be connected to the players in the game. But through it all, I survived. I have come to realize that the inhabitants of this great planet are all interrelated in some way. I do not have the capacity to explain how what I do affects others connected to me. But I do realize that I need to be careful to keep myself clear of dangerous and unchartered waters as much as I possibly can. Yes, I have blindsided in several instances. Although I allowed myself to become tempted and engaged, I was already aware that what I was being drawn into was either unethical or immoral. I now attribute my behavior in those instances to being the result of having developed a bitterness based on unresolved anger and my refusal to forgive myself and others. Hopefully, my book will effectively help someone to see that life is not black and white. There is so much more in the grey area to contend with and figure out.