Amazing Heart

AMAZING HEART DESCRIPTIONTEEN & YOUNG ADULT COMING OF AGE CONTEMPORARY FICTIONWOMEN’S CONTEMPORARY LITERARY FICTION SERIESIt’s Amazing, but for the first time in my life I have let go of the control. I’ve battled so hard to hold onto the twisted security of my family’s battle with alcoholism-it’s what I’ve known-never risking too much, holding back, so the hurt didn’t cut too deep. Now?I feel a new lifeAn unknown.Vulnerable.It’s magnificent.It’s … intimacy, being held, letting someone see into my dark places so the light, hidden since a little girl, can finally become brilliant. It’s amazing. I’m about to shout my love for a man who seems to understand me like no one ever has. After I do, will everything fall apart? In my heart of shadows, the fear of being abandoned beats inside my head with regular rhythms. Please take me in your arms, I say silently. Accept my dark places. Help me understand you won’t leave me. Maybe I’m dreaming when he says, Whatever path we choose, whatever arises, we’ll overcome our fears. Have a finally been set free from generational mistakes that are passed forward in our family? Dare I ask for what I want and trust myself enough to share my thoughts, wishes, dreams … dare I actually hope in another person? Will he break his promises like my parents did to me? Can I really, really, be alive, be vulnerable, open and reach for deep, sensual intimacy? Can I take a risk and transition into joy?