Not Without You

I have one rule in life-never fall in love. Sure, I loved my father and my best friend, but being in love with someone? Out of the question … It just wasn’t worth the risk. I saw the agony my father went through as my mother’s coffin was lowered into the ground, and he has never fully recovered from the depths of those sorrows. I won’t put myself through the same misery. I can’t.Instead, I lose myself in my art. As a painter, I push my emotions into the colors I paint with. I usually put my entire being into every single painting, driving my fingers past the breaking point, but lately, my creative well has run dry. For over a year, my mind has taken a creative sabbatical, locking me out of my own reprieve. But everything changed when I met him. One glance into those bright blue eyes had my hands twitching with the desire to paint again. If I thought remaining friends with my new muse was going to be easy, I was in for one hell of a letdown, because I was falling for him-fast. Handsome as hell, funny, and kind, he was everything I didn’t need, couldn’t have. I needed to remember my philosophy-live a happy, fulfilling life without falling in love. But deep down, I’m beginning to realize such a fate isn’t possible … Not Without You.