The Way I Am Now

There was a time, the darkest of times, when Eden thought the only person who could save her was Josh. He was everything that was good in the world - a trusting heart, a loving touch, a kind smile. But he was never meant to be her saviour. Eden had to do that on her own. Now Eden has started college and faced up to her rapist, it seems like they might finally be in the right place at the right time to make a relationship work. But as the trial that will determine if Eden gets the justice she deserves looms, opening unhealed wounds, can their love withstand the pressure?

Praise for The Way I Used To Be: 'A poignant and painfully honest survival story about the aftermath of trauma. Amber Smith weaves Eden's narrative with a deft, empathetic touch that doesn't shy away from difficult truths. This is a courageous, necessary, and beautiful book.' Kathleen Glasgow, author of Girl in Pieces

'A raw novel that'll stay with you long after you finish.' BuzzFeed

'Amber Smith's talent is immense.' L.E. Flynn, author of All Eyes On Her