In this evocative memoir, Kim Lefevre recounts her childhood and adolescence growing up in colonial Viet Nam. As a little girl living with her Vietnamese mother, she doesn’t understand the reactions of others toward her, their open mistrust, contempt, and rejection. Though she feels no different from those around her, she comes to understand that to Vietnamese she is living proof of her mother’s moral downfall, a constant and unwelcome reminder of a child conceived with a French soldier out of wedlock. As anticolonial sentiment grows in an atmosphere of rising nationalism, Lefevre’s situation becomes increasingly precarious.

Set within a tumultuous period of Franco-Vietnamese history-resistance and revolt, World War II and the Japanese invasion, the first war for independence against the French-White Metisse offers a unique view of watershed events and provides insights into the impact of upheaval and open conflict on families and individuals. Lefevre’s story captures the instability and daily humiliations of her life and those of other marginalized members of society. Sent by her mother to live with distant family members who view her variously as ungrateful, a bad seed, neither gold nor silver, she is later abandoned in an orphanage with other metisse girls. Her discovery of her own sexuality is overshadowed by her mother’s concerned advice not to repeat her own mistakes and Vietnamese social mores that condemn her very existence. Eventually the challenge and solace of education lead to a scholarship to study in Paris and her departure for a new life in France in 1960.

Part personal memoir, part coming of age story, Lefevre’s moving account shows the courage and strength of an individual who is able to embrace her hybrid identity and gain self-esteem on her own terms despite living between worlds. White Metisse has been in print in France since its appearance in 1989 and continues to resonate strongly in the universal contexts of immigration, shifting cultural identities, rejection, and assimilation. Now Jack A. Yeager’s elegant translation makes Kim Lefevre’s compelling memoir available to English-speaking readers.