Writing my autobiography was the most amazing journey of my life. I have always questioned who is Kevin James Jackson ? What is my purpose? My gift? Why wasn’t I truly happy? My journey help me to discover that I had what I was looking for inside of me all of the time. I realized that I was searching externally to find myself. I thought I had to reach a certain status in my life to truly be happy. The more I accomplished, the emptier I became. The more I searched for Kevin the further I drifted away from him. I believed that my hard times were punishments from God for my iniquities. I had to accept my consequences for whatever sins I committed and then wait on God to bless me. I believed I never had control over my life. I believed that my life and my destiny was left into the hands of fate. Finally I faced my fears, self-doubt, self-loathing, unhappiness, weaknesses, emptiness, and my internal difficulties, truthfully and honestly. I was forced to search inside myself for The True Kevin James Jackson .