He Loves Me Not: Buried Tears of Betrayed Love

Are you a victim or a victor? A casualty or a conqueror? With an abuser poised over her as she desperately shut her eyes and pretended to sleep, Kimesha Coleman acquired the label of victim at the age of 7. With no one to protect her and no one to demonstrate real love, Kimesha stumbled into adulthood, racked by relationship after violent relationship. There was the young man who smacked her with the side of a handgun, took her to a graveyard, and threatened her life, only to break down in sobs when she told him I love you. There was the insanely jealous guy who cheated on her yet taunted her with lit matches and a wire coat hanger, signaling the sick ways he intended to control her. Kimesha would exit one abusive relationship then get in another, propelled by a perverse attraction that always ended the same way. She would find herself crumpled on the floor, crying and shaking, blood running down her face. Just like her mother. And a part of her liked it. She was back in the role she could play by heart: victim. But one day Kimesha decided to write her own ending to the story. She cried out to God, and He showed her The Greatest Love of All -the need to love herself. Day by day, Kimesha began to put on a new identity: of courage, tenacity, persistence, and confidence. In her fast-paced story He Loves Me Not, Kimesha shares the step-by-step process that brought her victory over a broken past. From learning to identify what love is (and isn’t) to making practical changes to your life and way of thinking, Kimesha’s amazing journey shows a way out of the mess that so many women find themselves in.