We all try, don’t we? To understand who we are despite the trials and tribulations of childhood or our great loves, or even through the work we do. We understand that family binds us in ways that cannot be replicated in other relationships. We know we cannot escape our pasts. Our minds and bodies just do not let us get away with it.

Jacqueline Maley’s very considered second novel is the story of two half-sisters, Lara and Matilda. Placed as they are, on opposite sides of the world with different careers, Maley explores the hidden ramifications of trauma. Lara is a model, 10 years younger than Matilda, carefree and living in France. Matilda, Sydney based, works in an upscale restaurant and is wedded to her role there but remains contained and alone. She hides a secret. However, the sisters are close, speaking often and sharing tales of their days. Then a visit home by Lara and the return of her wayward, apologetic father blows everything apart.

It is said that all stories have only two plots: that of us leaving home, or that of us arriving home. Here, we have both sides: each sister battling out their own journey and returning, of course, to a new self-perception. This compassionate, feminist story unveils cause and effect and explores the true definition of self-love. The title is a clue here, referring to a Japanese expression that addresses that particular state in which you want to eat, but you are just not sure what you are wanting. You are searching for the right thing to do.

Despite the heaviness of this novel, there is laughter to be found. There are insights into the modelling world, restaurants, art and even book clubs. Readers of the early works of Margaret Atwood or Kate Grenville will rejoice here. Those who read Maley’s first, excellent novel, The Truth About Her, or indeed read her journalism, already know you are in very safe hands.