Andrea Strivers made one of the hardest decisions of her life alone in a sterile L.A. hospital room–twice. The thought of raising her own children made her cringe knowing just how much trauma was packed into her own childhood. These adoptions were final but living in the space of that eternal goodbye felt unbearable at times.

Alone and desperate to escape her reality, she will do whatever it takes to afford the drugs that ease her pain, the food that keeps her alive and the guns out of her face. Even if that means stripping or selling her body to whomever her pimp demands.

When an unlikely trio shows up on the streets not looking for sex, she begins to wonder what else her life could be. She can’t take her eyes off of them, especially the tall, blonde-haired man who somehow knows her name- her real name.

They’re handing out roses filled with hope and, for the first time, Andrea starts to imagine a different life for herself. She wants to believe someone with her past is worth saving even though it seems impossible.

Content Warning: Please note this book depicts issues of physical and emotional abuse, panic attacks, parent death, circumstances involving sex and exploitation, drug abuse, rape, birth, and miscarriage. It also includes swearing and harsh language. I have done my best to approach these topics with sensitivity, but if you feel this kind of content may be triggering, please be aware.