In this captivating memoir, Stanley O'Shea unflinchingly shares his tumultuous experience as an international graduate student in the American Midwest. His narrative weaved through a labyrinth of unexpected trials, crises, and cultural clashes as he grappled with the perplexing healthcare system, the haunting justice system, the intimidating immigration maze, and the bureaucratic intricacies of academia.Through his triangular interactions with two "elite" students, he not only rectified his understanding of mainstream American culture but also delved into the depths of human relationships. The multi-layered emotional turmoil Stanley endured as he confronted the "devil" within and outside, mixed with the benevolence and insights he received from peers and fellows, resulted in his transcendence of the original "American dream." ?Along this journey, Stanley invites readers to reflect on universal themes of identity, resilience, mental health, and spiritual growth.