This is about my journey navigating through life masking childhood trauma and addiction as well as the challenges of being on the spectrum I was struck by lightening in 1968 aged 7 and feel sure that had some impact on my neurology contributing to who I am Following my path that attempts to face my issues and looking for ways to return to health through various healing modalities and spiritual search to discover who I truly am After a decade of living and working in different communities working and traveling doing a wide range of occupations including voluntary work and care work amongst many others My search took me to the Findhorn Community in the Northeast of Scotland after a series of difficult personal events in my mid 20s that changed my life and began my search I took up running age 46 then Ultramarathon running as a therapeutic response to my addictions and competed in the UKs longest Ultramarathons The journey takes us through my own health challenges exploring ways of healing my deep rooted ancestral patterns and allowing my creative expression in a wide range of craft and music and physical pursuits like yoga and Ultra running