The honest, explicit and extraordinary memoir of Edward Charles Featherstone-Englishman, Businessman, Polo Player and Combat Pilot-My Rude Awakening reveals an astonishing account of life lived with passion and intensity.

From the lush green Berkshire's polo fields, through the ardours of military helicopter training, to the white heat of flying combat missions in the Middle East, Charles's journey is a riveting tale of privilege, peril and profound personal transformation.

Raised amidst the traditions of English upper-class society, Charles's life takes an unexpected turn when he embarks on a forbidden, intoxicating affair. This passionate relationship not only challenges societal norms but also ignites a deeply personal awakening that defines his transition into manhood.

Then as a combat helicopter pilot in the Royal Air Force, Charles faces the brutal realities of war and harrowing experiences that still live with him to this day.

Prepare to be shocked, captivated and inspired by the raw, unvarnished truth of this shy boy's unforgettable journey of love, loss, and survival into adulthood.

Trigger warning: This book contains game bird shooting and fox hunting content, references to suicide, PTSD, and explicit sexual content.