In this gripping memoir, I invite you to witness the raw reality of army life as we, a diverse group of young men from every walk of life, were thrust into the crucible of military service on a journey that either manned you up or spat you out. The discipline, training, and experiences we endured forged a camaraderie that brought us all closer than brothers - and left us with an emptiness that nothing else could fill. We will never forget the bravery of many who sacrificed life or limb for our country - nor the haunting memories of what we saw and did. Allow me to take you with me onto the unforgiving battlefield, where bravery and loss intertwine in a narrative that speaks volumes in our collective silence. This is not just the story of a soldier, but a testament to the indelible mark the South African Defense Force left on those who served. We are the soldiers of the South African Defense Force. This is my part of our story.