If all the hell I have been through were to awaken me to who I am and ought to be, then God, I thank you for the process. Without it I would have never known my true self and the greatness that exists in me. It was painful but necessary. I religiously wore the cloak of the church society seeking their approval as if they were the architect of my destiny. Thus, burdening myself with unnecessary weight along with my own lies which I lived through the lens of lost self-worth and mental degradation. Do I cherish the hurt and take my revenge? Or do I forgive, so I can heal and be restored? How do I escape; psychological entrapment; marital imprisonment and religious barriers? Who knows!