This riveting narrative is about sadomasochism within the bonds of matrimony. The purpose of this book is to spark the awakening of other \“insecure princesses\” who find themselves trapped in sexually abusive relationships. This book is also about educating health care professionals about the brainwashing and powerlessness involved in sadomasochistic relationships through a personal account into the secretive world of S & M. From an academic view, topics such as feminist psychology, empowerment, boundary setting, and the importance of the therapeutic alliance play out in the journey to break free from this dark, destructive lifestyle. I write as the voice of a survivor. I made it out of a twenty-two year marriage where I was nothing more than a sex slave to my husband, and I have emerged into a new life filled with light and love.