Confessions of a Fornicating Church Girl

Like so many other children who grew up in church, Leesa McFall learned from a tender age that sex outside of marriage was a sin. She knew it was something she should not do. As a church girl spending most of her time in church or at church activities, Leesa learned how to serve her church community well. She also learned how to mimic how the typical church girl should speak, walk, and look. She was also always reminded of the importance of remaining a virgin until marriage. However, after a traumatic life experience that brought about severe emotional trauma, Leesa quickly found herself in a state of promiscuity. Not long after, daughter of a preacher and a Sunday School teacher, praise and worship leader and praise dancer found herself pregnant and unmarried at age eighteen. As she grappled through life, navigating the shame and disgrace that was placed upon her, her emotional state deteriorated. She found herself in and out of toxic relationships for much of her teen and adult life. When she had finally learned to manage her life and suppress her emotions, she found herself pregnant, unmarried, depressed and suicidal again in her mid-twenties. This time, she learned to look for God in the midst of her mess. And she sought the Lord, He made Himself known and embraced her with His love, grace and strength. Leesa's encounter with the grace and mercy of a perfect God saved her life and is the foundation on which she now stands. In this memoir, Leesa discusses how the love of Jesus Christ turned her life around and gave her the hope she needed to begin a new life.